Friday, 1 March 2019

The Choice by Edith Eger, a perspective by Alan Ewing









THE CHOICE BY EDITH EGER
A perspective by Alan Ewing



"The Choice by Edith Eger is an autobiographical work which dove-tails into a psychological strategy for living life in a fulfilling manner, when haunted by the past. The past in Eher's case being Auschwitz, losing her mother and father there, then being forced to dance for the infamous Dr Mengele, and being subjected to treatment as part of a people treated like cattle. The horrors that she was witness to would be capable of damaging even the strongest mind and constitution of any human being.

In looking from personal perspective of the book, then her mother's words ring through. "Just remember that no-one can take away what you have put in your mind."  This on the awful journey to Auschwitz. In this motherly advice is planted a seed which grows and grows into Edith's life and fortifies her with deep strength. It would carry her through pneumonia, typhoid fever, pleurisy and a broken back. All of this on top of the hell on earth that she was in. From all of this came her great work as a therapist.

The thrust of the work is in facing up to whatever the horrors of the past may be and thus releasing oneself within the present. It is never a case of denying the past, rather of accepting it and learning to come to terms with it as life existentially belongs to the here and now. "I help people realise that the biggest prison is their mind" is how Dr Eger puts it. If we put up stumbling blocks to facing our past then we will never be free in the present. This is the epicentre of calm existence. 

Edith Eger's work is heavily influenced by fellow Auschwitz survivor Viktor Frankl', whose seminal work being "Man's Search For Meaning." Carl Rogers and his theories of self-actualisation always play a major role, as she was a student of his also. In this work though, it is Dr Eger's own therapeutic techniques that come through. Her empathy with her patients as she journeys into their unhappiness and the root causes of it. The book is a tremendous testament to the power of positive psychology.

Alan Ewing

Thursday, 28 February 2019

United States Army Air Force WWII Memorial, Landican, Wirral, England, by Alan Ewing







UNITED STATES ARMY AIR FORCE MEMORIAL
Landican, Wirral, England


plaque

Gazing out from my balcony door I look across a field where part of the wreckage of a US Liberator B24 crashed in October 1944. The plane was lost control of in mid-air. The reasons for this, to this day, are unknown. 24 American Forces personnel died as a result of the crash. It was the largest disaster of its kind to happen on Merseyside. A memorial stone with plague marking the crash lies on the Durly Estate a few roads away, by the River Fender, a lost cousin of the  River Dee and River Mersey, unbeknown to most Wirral/Liverpool residents. The building in which I live is named after this river.


memorial stone


The commotion was seen by many Wirral witnesses, along Landican Lane, in nearby Oxton and Prenton. The craft was out of control and broke up in mid-air. Fires broke out and energy services were rallied to the scene. This was a night never to be forgotten by those Wirral residents that saw it, and the most dramatic incident that would ever take place alongside the stretch of the River Fender. A truly tragic event.

liberator B-24


The first time that I came across the memorial, I had no idea what it was. I approached and was taken aback about how little was ever broadcast about this unique World War II incident. I felt sadness that it lay within such a neglected corner. And so to mark its presence, I wished to post this blog, particularly for US friends that I have befriended online. I often think about these 24 young men, their hopes and aims for life as they sat on that transfer flight., and how this all came to an end in a field in Landican.



 God Rest their souls.




Alan Ewing 2019

Sunday, 24 February 2019

William Dewy's Bedroom Band II: The Parting, a short story, with music by Alan Ewing






WILLIAM DEWY'S BEDROOM BAND II: THE PARTING
a short story by Alan Ewing





William Dewy's Bedroom Band Intro music

William Dewy sprung out of bed for the day's work ahead. It was apple picking season again. The night before had been a cider-house gig for his musical combo "William Dewy's Bedroom Band". There was friction with the other lead member of the band, who was beginning to take his own musical direction with rumours circulating within the countryside village in which they lived. Maisy Hopkins, the milkmaid, was sure that Aylon was going to leave the band and do his own gig. The night before had seen the performance begin with an academic number of sorts from Aylon. "Self-Actualisation (Within Artistic Creation)"

Self-Actualisation (Through Artistic Creation)
by William Dewy's Bedroom Band

Aylon had written it while on an away-day course from the village. Dewy felt that maybe the songwriting matter was becoming expansive and they needed to keep in with cider songs for the clientele of the cider houses. The second number of the evening, "The Maze", had seen Dewy and Aylon deploying visible friction as guitar and bass pitched with each other. Mil Thomkins, the baker, said that he had seen the duo throwing cider over each other backstage.

The Maze
by William Dewy's Bedroom Band

The next song was seen by many as a dig at Aylon's studying by Dewy.  Matthew Jenkins, the Farmer's hand, said that Dewy had told him that Aylon was turning into a studious recluse, and did not even join the band on their nights off these days. "You're In Your Room" came into the air of the gig, now the friction had become frosty. The rest of the band had started to pitch on flagons of cider as the gig wore on. Both Dewy and Aylon hooked a flagon a piece too.

You're In Your Room
by William Dewy's Bedroom Band

The effect of the cider seemed to bring the band back into focus as they swiftly moved on to "Second Wind." A few jokes circulated that wind was certainly going to play a part in the evening, which would have nothing to do with the weather. Mabel Hichins, the prime belle in town, began to dance surrounded by a group of vegetable pickers and merriment was in the air. Certainly, the tension was released as the evening wore on.

Second Wind
by William Dewy's Bedroom Band

For the last number Dewy stood up to the microphone to say that Aylon was leaving the band after that night to pursue his own route as had been rumoured. He continued that there were no hard feelings, and that the band would continue to play within the village; which Aylon was also leaving. Everybody lifted a flagon of cider and wished Aylon well, who then went on to introduce the last performance for the band with "A Sense Of Time (A Sense of Place)"

A Sense Of Time (A Sense Of Place)
by William Dewy's Bedroom Band

After that, the band signed off, as they had begun with their signature tune. the band would continue to play on in the village, while Aylon pursued his own path.

William Dewy's Bedroom Band Outro Music


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Sunday, 17 February 2019

William Dewy's Bedroom Band, a short story, with music by Alan Ewing






WILLIAM DEWYS BEDROOM BAND
a short story with music by Alan Ewing


[Links to music under song titles]




William Dewy woke up. His head was in a daze due to the cider drinking the night before. The band were slouched around him looking like a heap of coals.  They had really lived it up playing at the party the night before, with the dance gig raging by midnight. It had certainly lived up to the name of the band, that being his Bedroom Band.  For William Dewy had been named by his parents after a character who appeared in many of Thomas Hardy's novels, who had a band which played church and party gigs. One morning they woke up and launched into a party piece; in their hangover dozing they had forgotten that they were actually in a church service!

The William Dewy of our story called his outfit, "William Dewy's Bedroom Band" in honour of that. They would launch their set with their signature tune:

William Dewy's Bedroom Band Intro



The band then launched into "Everything You Know", a song based on a crazy party conversion that Dewy had with a barmaid. She kept arguing that she knew everything that he did, while he contended that they both knew a bit of what each other knew. This had all started because she had said that she had nothing to do with her life and and so had nothing to say. Needless to say this abstract debate was fuelled with many glasses of cider.

Everything You Know 
by William Dewy's Bedroom Band



Further to this Dewy has written "All At Sea" with its central message of being true to what you believe in and getting back to your roots if you became adrift. The band played the number as further flagons of cider entered the pub. Two of the lasses in the bar started to dance and soon the whole room was in a dancing mood.
All At Sea 
by William Dewy's Bedroom Band

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William Dewy was still in a hungover haze the next morning. The band had flagons around them for a cider cure, while Dewy noticed that he too had one. Much gulping took place and soon the band were in the mood to play. They launched into "Blew It Again" with the intention of stomping the room out and hiking up the dancing.

Blew It Again
by William Dewy's Bedroom Band

Upon finishing the song they were greeting by the gaping mouth of The Rector and his congregation. Dewy had forgotten that the band had finished the party gig and had opted in their drunken state to sleep over on the musical area in the church, as they had offered to perform a song there next day.. Dewy was astounded. He had managed to act out exactly what his namesake in Thomas Hardy's "Under The Greenwood Tree" novel had managed. Awkwardly, Dewy took to the microphone and explained that this had just been a soundcheck. The band then played "The Way" which was the intended song for the setting.

The Way
by William Dewy's Bedroom Band

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After this the Rector and his congregation had beaming, smiling faces. William Dewy's Bedroom Band played their signature outro. Afterwards everybody shared tea and cake, and a few cups of cider ended up in the parish annals.

William Dewy's Bedroom Band Outro






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Thursday, 14 February 2019

The Church Songs, Biblical-based self-written songs by Alan Ewing 1990-91






THE CHURCH SONGS
a blog by Alan Ewing
St Michaels Church, Pensby, Wirral


There are those days when you open a draw that you have not looked in for ages. You root around and then something jumps out at you.  In the subject of this blog, it was a set of songs discovered from over 40 years ago that drew my attention. These basic recordings were a memento of a time when I would write and perform self-written Biblically based songs within the Church of England. That being St Michaels Church, Pensby, to be precise.

The recordings were meant to sound "as live" in seeking to capture them as acts of worship. They were well received by the congregation, and also at St Marks Church, Saltney, in youth groups, which I took part in as a Parish Assistant. These were the days when ordination appeared to be my path in life. Though that never came to pass, the sheer honour and joy in writing these songs specifically for the church gave its own reward. For to perform and sing in The Lord's House is the greatest honour of all.


St Mark's Church, Saltney, Chester


The lyrics to the songs follow: by clicking on the links under the song titles, the recordings can be heard. By clicking back, on this blog tag, the words can be followed to the music.




THE FRUIT OF THE SPIRIT
by Alan Ewing
based on Gal 5;22 Rom 8;5

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The fruit of the Spirit begins with love
The descending of the Spirit like a dove
The Spirit in us living, 
With the peace that God is giving
The fruit of the Spirit begins with love

The Spirit of life sets us free from sin
Taking us closer to Jesus and glory with him
The seal is on us with the Spirit in our hearts
Understand clearly that the future is ours

The fruit of the spirit begins with love ...

Lord set our minds on what the Spirit desires
As in the days of tongues of fire
Hallelujah Lord, we call on your name
Knowing that those who do will be saved

The fruit of the Spirit begins with love ...





THE SHEPHERD'S WARNING
by Alan Ewing
based upon Matthew 25: 31-46

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When the Son of Man comes in His glory
All nations will tell their story
From each other the people he will separate
At the moment for which the angels wait

I am hungry - will you feed me
Or will you go away and leave me
I am a stranger - can I come in?
Or shall I go and come another day

All the ones who helped to ease the strife
They will be rewarded with eternal life
But those who neglected the needy
Will be cast down with all the greedy

I am hungry ...





THE DAY OF THE LORD
by Alan Ewing
based upon 2 Peter 3; 1-18

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Let's seek out our peace with Him
He knows our hearts and the state they're in
The Day of The Lord will come like a thief
So let's speak out and show our belief

The Lord's patience means salvation
So make His House your habitation
Come rejoice in a new birth
With thoughts on the new Heaven and Earth

A thousand years are like a day
Listen to what the prophets say
A day is like a thousand years
Open your heart for The Lord is near

Aim for a holy and godly life
As you wait for The Lord to arrive
Be on your guard don't get carried away
But grow in Grace as you wait for The Day

To Jesus be the glory now and forever
For He is The Lord our heavenly treasure
So let's worship Him in truth
As we seek and find Him together

A thousand years are like a day ...





THE RESURRECTION AND THE LIFE
by Alan Ewing
based on John 11:25-28

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I am the resurrection and the life, he who believes in me will live even though he dies, and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?

Yes Lord, I believe that you are The Christ: The Son of God who was to come into the world.



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Monday, 10 December 2018

Deano Jones And The Obscure Rogues: ebook & music (2018) by Alan Ewing






Deano Jones And The Obscure Rogues
 a light comedy novel by Alan Ewing



A light comedy ebook novel by Alan Ewing. A tale of an independent band seeking to resist the mainstream, while its lead man gets into comic romantic capers.


A little opus. Twenty years in the making. A play to begin with.  All songs within it written. A musical in its way. This little tale about "Deano Jones And The Obscure Rogues" now out as an ebook ...https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B07L8JM611

1. Preview Chapter from beginning of ebook

2. Links to musical numbers from book written by Alan Ewing


PREVIEW CHAPTER

IN THE BEGINNING




Chapter 1

 

Suburbia

 
In the beginning was suburbia. And suburbia produces many surprising results. As the sun beat down on Westgrove Avenue, on the outskirts of the city of Poolchester, hedges were being trimmed and lawns being mowed. It was an everyday scene no doubt being played out a million times around The English Land. But the scene being played out in the living room at 32 Westgrove Avenue was one of the more unusual of suburbia’s outpourings. A stereo in the corner of the room was playing “Should I Stay Or Should I Go” by The Clash. Sitting in armchairs listening to this were Deano Jones and Billy The Bass.   
 “I don’t know what I’d do if fame came my way. I think I’d just sit around all day eating bacon barm cakes. Mind you, that’s all I do now”, said Deano. He sat dressed in his usual jeans and tee shirt with slogan; his whole look reminiscent of James Dean, only with Deano having dark hair. The regulation leather jacket was hanging up in the hall. This was a young man, twenty-one years of age, who knew what he liked. 
     “I know what you mean Deano. There’s nothing quite like a barm cake wrapped around bacon with lashings of brown sauce. Who’d want to give that up for champagne and caviar?” The reply came from Billy The Bass, otherwise known as William Brevvers, but he felt that attaching his name to his instrument was a good thing. He had blonde wavy hair but was dressed like Deano in neo-fifties garb.
“Yeah, I know; imagine not being able to run down to the chippy because you might get pestered if you go out. I don’t really think that I’d like that. I’m too set in my ways.
Just think of it Billy lad, you’d have to be up at six in the morning to be able to take a
walk in peace”. Deano’s reply was sincere. Here sat a person who sought expression through his music, not fame, although infamy had its appeal. 
“Six in the morning! You must be joking. I don’t even know what that time of the day looks like. I’ve got out of bed at six in the evening a few times though”, laughed Billy. 
This prompted Deano to suggest a song title, “I Lost My Heart To A Bacon Barm Cake” at which the two friends and musical colleagues let out peals of laughter.
“All this talk about food is making me hungry. A good one for the band though; you need odd song titles with a name like The Obscure Rogues”, said Billy, for such was the name of the music combo to which they both belonged. 
 “Yeah, and it would probably be a big hit, meaning that we’d end up in a situation where we were not supposed to eat that sort of thing”. 
 “Shall I open the bread bin?” Asked Billy
 But before Deano could answer, the living room door flew open and in walked Mrs Jones, Deano’s mother, the daughter of Desmond and Molly Jones –a name she had kept after marriage and given to her son as she couldn’t bear to part with it—Gloria Jones was a young looking woman, somewhere in her thirties, with dark hair and grey-green eyes, not unlike her son in looks and appearance. The big difference between them lay in interpretation of the work ethic. For Deano it meant music, but for his mother it was a case of being realistic, in taking what was available to earn money in order to get on. 
 “ Oh, hello Billy. I didn’t realise you were here. How are your mum and dad?” Gloria Jones always believed in politeness when opening dialogue.
 “Fine thanks Mrs Jones”, came Billy’s response.
 “Have you two been down to the Jobcentre this morning? Didn’t you have one of
those Restart interviews to attend Dean?”
“That’s on Thursday mum. Billy and me were just discussing eating habits in relation to certain types of career”.       
“You won’t find a job by sitting around all day. It’s about time you pulled yourself together Dean. At twenty-one you should be holding down a regular job”.
 “I think it would be best if I sorted it out myself mum”.
 “That’s all very well for you to say Dean. I’m the one who has to put up with all this, you know. I think that you are being very selfish. And what about Samantha? She’s a lovely girl and you’re lucky to have her. So what are you going to do about it?”
The reference here was to Deano’s girlfriend of some standing, Samantha Burrows; a young lady with reddish-brown hair with green tints and highlights, coupled with deep green eyes.  Mrs Jones would usually play this card when wanting to remind Deano of responsibilities. Her motivation for these exchanges was simply the fact that she wanted Deano to succeed in life. She didn’t disapprove of his music, but felt that it was not a reliable basis for a lifetime’s career and economic need.
 “Okay mum, we’ve been through this before”, cut back Deano.
“Yes, and we’ll go through it again and again until you pull your socks up, my lad”, and Mrs Jones meant what she said. Having decided that the exchange could no longer be productive, she took her leave of the room.
 “Phew! She didn’t seem very happy”, said Billy who had sat rather sheepishly through the proceedings.
 “Yeah, the bugbear of all musicians”, responded Deano, “the pressures from family to take a steady job. And with Dad on leave at the moment, I’m getting an overdose of earache. I can’t see there being anything at the Jobcentre for the likes of me. Last time I went, the only jobs on offer were at that dump of a hamper factory down-town. You’d end up in depression working in a place like that. But that’s mum all over when she takes the mood. She thinks that I should just go out and take the first thing that appears; she has no understanding of the way I am”.
Deano sighed. He knew that when the worlds of suburbia and rock n’ roll collided then fireworks would ensue.
“Maybe it’s about time that I got myself a flat or something. Never mind not getting peace when you make it: I’m getting none now! I suppose I’d better go and mow the lawn or one of those other jobs I said I’d do. It really is too much”, he continued.
Billy shifted awkwardly in his armchair; he did not really know how to approach the internal domestic conflicts of the Jones family.
 “I know. It’s not too much to ask for. A quiet life I mean”, he managed to meander out.
 The stereo in the corner had for some time been in a state of silence. Deano’s thoughts turned towards it and away from suburban lawns. He had, prior to his mother’s entrance, been indulging in a punk/new wave CD session. He clicked on the stereo remote control for the Ian Dury and the Blockheads track “What A Waste”. This seemed an apt reflection on the world of Westgrove Avenue and the status of the musician within it.



Musical links

Musical numbers for the ebook were recorded as Aylon (Alan Ewing) and are available online: click on links for audi ...

Gloria Told Me https://alanewing.bandcamp.com/track/gloria-told-me
Bernadette's Maisonette https://alanewing.bandcamp.com/track/bernadettes-maisonette
Coming To Get You https://alanewing.bandcamp.com/track/coming-to-get-you
Storm Clouds https://alanewing.bandcamp.com/track/storm-clouds
Mine, Not Yours https://alanewing.bandcamp.com/track/mine-not-yours
Jolly Hockey Sticks https://alanewing.bandcamp.com/track/jolly-hockey-sticks
Immortal https://alanewing.bandcamp.com/track/immortal

The Obscure Rogues Experimental work, recording demonstrations by Alan Ewing
I Lost My Heart To A Bacon Barm Cake (Parts 1.2.3)/The Train To Fame/Busking For Love In The Big Apple/The Poolchester Anthem/I Asked For A Bacon Toastie/The Best Names Are Never Dropped http://aylon1.bandcamp.com/album/the-obscure-rogues-experimental-work






Monday, 12 November 2018

The Shining, The Novel, a reading ... by Alan Ewing







THE SHINING
a reading by Alan Ewing




The Shining novel differs in many aspects from the Stanley Kubrick movie.  In the book there are scenes that are different or unused in the film. The wasps’ nest scenes are only in the book, while the maze in Kubrick’s cinematic have no place in the written work which instead has a series of animal hedges that move..

The character of Jack Torrance is the biggest difference between the works, in the movie Jack is driven solely by the ghouls and monsters that haunt The Overlook Hotel. In the novel it is his own monstrous thoughts about violence in his childhood which carries over into his adult life that hounds him King says in his introduction that in his only conversation with Kubrick that they discussed whether our thoughts are the monsters that give us or is it supernatural forces. For Kubrick, says King, it was clearly the latter that came out in his version of “The Shining.” It is psychological horror that King deals with, with hallucinations arising from that.

Jack is a deeper character in the book. A school teacher/writer whose career goes wrong following a violent incident with a pupil. He is an avid reader writer. Violence flares again though when he breaks his son’s arm in chastisement. The threat of divorce lingers in the air from his way Wendy. Jack is remorseful about what he did to Danny, He lives in terror of being caught out by his father’s violence and how it has crossed into him. He loved his father though the beatings in childhood caused damage to him, his siblings and their mother.

The supernatural element to the novel chiefly lies in Danny, with his gift of the shine, it is clear that Jack has no ability in this, while Wendy only has a little. Only Danny can see what is happening.  The rest is psychological violence and the input of violent people into our lives.  The thoughts and emotions that are left behind are like those of ghosts of the past. The whole point of the novel lies within this.

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