Persona, a blog by Alan Ewing

 

 

 PERSONA

 

a blog by Alan Ewing

 

 

 

 

Is our past self our present self? For the universe is in Fluxus Quo. It is in a constant state of change. Brought to mind by my recently turning 60, the point at which metabolism ceases to regenerate. What then? Is this the change that sees the ebbing away of the old human body? The New Testament teaches us that we evolve into a new spiritual state:

I Corinthians 35-49: (NIV)

³⁵ But someone will ask, “How are the dead raised? With what kind of body will they come?” ³⁶ How foolish! What you sow does not come to life unless it dies. ³⁷ When you sow, you do not plant the body that will be, but just a seed, perhaps of wheat or of something else. ³⁸ But God gives it a body as he has determined, and to each kind of seed he gives its own body. ³⁹ Not all flesh is the same: People have one kind of flesh, animals have another, birds another and fish another. ⁴⁰ There are also heavenly bodies and there are earthly bodies; but the splendor of the heavenly bodies is one kind, and the splendor of the earthly bodies is another. ⁴¹ The sun has one kind of splendor, the moon another and the stars another; and star differs from star in splendor.

⁴² So will it be with the resurrection of the dead. The body that is sown is perishable, it is raised imperishable; ⁴³ it is sown in dishonor, it is raised in glory; it is sown in weakness, it is raised in power; ⁴⁴ it is sown a natural body, it is raised a spiritual body.

If there is a natural body, there is also a spiritual body. ⁴⁵ So it is written: “The first man Adam became a living being”^[a]; the last Adam, a life-giving spirit. ⁴⁶ The spiritual did not come first, but the natural, and after that the spiritual. ⁴⁷ The first man was of the dust of the earth; the second man is of heaven. ⁴⁸ As was the earthly man, so are those who are of the earth; and as is the heavenly man, so also are those who are of heaven. ⁴⁹ And just as we have borne the image of the earthly man, so shall we^[b] bear the image of the heavenly man.

 

So we evolve. What we evolve into will be defined by our present self. The present, though is always changing. The universe itself expands, and when contractions arrive, will then start to reverse in time, according to the latest scientic theory. All that is becomes as it was. In following this through then self is a myriad of states. We cannot alter the past, for that would go against the physical laws of the universe. We can only affect the present which, as observed, is constantly changing. In conclusion, our persona is never fixed at any point in time

 

 

 

 

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The Ultimate Betrayal, a lyric by Alan Ewing

 

 

 

 

 The Ultimate Betrayal

a lyric by Alan Ewing

 

 

 

Trust was put in him,

but he betrayed without a care;

he committed the ultimate sin.

By giving over one so fair.

Thirty pieces of silver in hand,

he received his pay.

The world was just a grain of sand

In the universe on that fateful day.

Oh! Judas, you fool, you fool!

For playing satan's game.

Couldn't you see that you were just a tool?

For the assault upon The Holiest Name.

Oh! Modern churches unify,

In His Holy Name.

Sectarian interests multiply:

you have only yourselves to blame.

For is this not also betrayal?

To segregate His words.

Substituting conflict and dogma,

for the true message being heard ...

 

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image The Last Supper by Carl Heinrich Bloch 1876

Emotional Dysregulation, a personal blog by Alan Ewing MSc, BA Hons, Cert HE

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Emotional Dysregulation

a personal blog by Alan Ewing 

Having been diagnosed with this mental health condition this week, then my purpose here is to give some explanation about the condition. First though, it is with relief that I finally have a mental health diagnosis, given years of exploring various medicines and therapies to find an answer. Now, at last I can receive the correct medicines and treatments for a condition that has mentally plagued me for years. It is also a massive weight lifted to be able to tell family and friends why I often behave in the way that I do. Like not wanting to talk or chat at certain times, like appearing anti-social, or over-wrought. A long period of self-isolation, five years, has taken place in order to get the answers as to why I have had disastrous relationship break-ups, which then in turn affect the condition. And as to why there are times when I wish to withdraw from society.

 

Emotion Dysregulation, is, in simple terms an inability to process emotional feelings and control them in response to provocative stimuli. The effect of this is a response which can be hostile, or temperamental brewing to anger in certain situations. Whereas, a person with Emotional Regulation can quickly gauge when emotions are going wild, then the person with Emotional Dysregulation is unable to gather rationality once the emotions have been aroused. This can then result in irrational behavior and creation of conflict. Confusion reigns as loss of reality takes place with a series of emotions that swing from one place to another. This causes problems in close relationships, as patterns of behavior change.

 

 

An illustration of how Emotional Dysfunctuality operates, usually with the front locus of the brain, is shown in this diagram.  A burst of creative energy can often lead to be a sense of overwhelming, which can then result in a straight collapse. A disappointment or let-down, or a point of conflict with a close person can then result in an eruption, which will then be followed by angst. A root cause of Emotional Dysfunctionality stems from anxiety disorder. A sense of not being able to get things right, to get communication across and concerns about how other people are being treated. This can lead to extreme self-isolation.

 

 

 

The next diagram illustrates how this path maps itself out, as emotions explode with no self-awareness, followed by a complete lack of self-control.
 

 

The condition should not be confused with bi-polar, as that has periods of low despairing moods alternating with manic episodes. Rather Emotional Dysregulation has its motions through anxiety related disorder. It also has roots in psychological and emotional trauma that may have taken place throughout life and these may have caused the condition to grow. The nature of close relationships in life will have a huge impact. Damage can be severely inflicted by abusive or malicious intent from others.

Alan Ewing, MSc, BA(Hons), Cert HE

 

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Past, Present & Future, a blog by Alan Ewing

 

 

 

 

  Past, Present & Future

A blog by Alan Ewing

 

The latest scientific thinking is that time travel to the past is not possible. This being because it is still happening. The evidence of this lies with the expanding universe and how we can look back in time to the early stages of the universe with telescopes. Same as in how light from stars emanated at an earlier period of time and yet we are seeing it in the present. We cannot go back to what is still happening

The present is a product of the past. It only exists maybe for a fraction nano-second as time keeps moving. So to be in the present may well be a misconception. The present tense becomes the past tense within the flicker of an eye-lash. So therefore our concept of the present moment is always out of date. And of course, as explained, we cannot go back to the moment that has passed.

The future then. Well, once again we cannot go into it. We can only predict what with the evidence that lies before us. Scientific thought says that all stars die and that eventually we will be left with black holes. All ends with The Creator, my own personal belief system. Again, on the question of the universe collapsing in upon itself, then The Book of Revelation says that everything will return to God, including Christ. Our choice is to believe that all of this is meaningless, or else something is behind it. 

 

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